i love new years. i don't know, there's something about the illusion of a fresh start, or a new leaf. aw. new leaf. see, i'm in a such a good mood i'm even amused by the word 'leaf'.

any how, i think this year so far i'm off to a good start in getting my little ducks in order. i'm going back to school, and maybe if i'm lucky i'll be able to go full time by next january. granted i have no debt, and i'm reasonably well situated. so far so good.... I also haven't figured out what I want to take, so I'm spending a lot of time looking at that website trying to find an answer. Any suggestions? I don't want to be a workaholic (been there, done that), and I want to work regular hours. Doctor is out of the question, as they have crappy shift work and people vomit on them. I can't contend with either.

i love the new books i'm reading. (i love that i'm reading new books again). a friend lent me four books and they are about neural linguistics, and perspective/subjective psychology. basically, everything is what you make of it. and its true, always has been, i'm sure everyone has heard their mother or someone else say something similar. its far more interesting to read about. oh, and i also think its time to go shopping for myself again and buy me some things that make me happy. and sew. cathy got a sewing machine and so we're going to sew together. which is excellent, because i haven't sewn in years. but i love it.

this weekend, besides getting a lot of sleep, and watching too much tv, we played a video game called 'true crime'. or something. it was so much fun. its an 'adult game' rated whatever adult games are. can you tell i'm an avid gamer? any way, i thought it was a lot of fun. still unnecessarily violent though. i was talking to my uncle about this last night. i don't understand why the majority of video and computer games involve violence? i happened to be perfectly satisfied with mario, and mario kart, and stuff like that. why do we have to beat people to death, drawing from a whole arsenal of weapons some of which are really disgusting like a bat, or a shard of glass??? and call that entertainment? how can we then wonder why bullies at school no longer call kids names? they follow them home in a gang and kick them in the head until they end up dead or in the hospital?

i don't know. maybe that sounds extremely hypocritical considering that i just said i played true crime and thought it was great fun. but, in my defense, this game had what we called 'karma'. you could be a good cop or a bad cop, and there were neutralizing 'moves' instead of just killing and beating up. oh well. i guess what entertains me isn't the same as what entertains everyone else. my favorite games are the old school nintendo, tetris, and that cat and mouse game where you trapped the cat and it turned into cheese. hardly competitive and gory enough for the boys i suppose.

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